been in a shitty headspace as of late. days are passing by and I'm floating through them, barely aware of their passing as nothing happens in them anyway. life is continuing and I am tugged along with it regardless.
nothing happens. constantly dazed, I'm hardly alive, more a dead thing walking and wondering when living will stop feeling like a chore. I wake up each morning and wish I hadn't, constantly wishing I was still unconscious, wondering why every time I struggle to wake it's like I'm drowning and someone's pulling me under until suddenly they let go, and I'm awake, and I wish I wasn't, and another day passes by, the cycle repeats.
every day is a blank canvas I no longer know what to paint onto, every moment of sleep is a blessing. soon I shall be nothing but dust forgotten in the sands of time.
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